Don't let you past keep you from your future.......

But Lot's wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt (Genesis 19:26)........



How many times do we begin our walk with Christ and in the midst take a look back? I know in my walk i have MANY times. Matter of fact "looking back" is what kept me from taking that first step with Christ for a LONG time. Most of the looking back was the guilt of the things i had done and not thinking myself worthy of even stepping in a church and if i did i felt like I had a HUGE red sign on my forehead flashing "SINNER,SINNER,SINNER". That's really how i felt and each time God called out to me my answer to him was "what i've done is bigger than your grace". Really isn't that what we're saying when we let our past guilts keep us from following Christ? If you really take a deep look that's exactly what we are saying......."God your just not big enough to cover what i've done" or worse yet "Jesus the beating you took and the blood you shed just isn't good enough to cover MY sins". Well that is so very far from the truth and once God was able to get that truth through my stubborness he was able to transform my life in ways i NEVER thought possible!

The first truth i had to realize in this is that if i had a big red flashing sign saying "SINNER,SINNER,SINNER"......guess what...... so did everyone else. For the truth says......"All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one."Romans3:12......Once i was able to get that understanding in my head i was able to open up to the people God had placed in my life to help lead and guide me in my walk. I no longer felt like these people were judging me because i understood that we all have our past failures. Another truth that had to sink in was....."But God demonstrates HIS own LOVE for us in this; While we were STILL sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8......How awesome is it to know that while we were sinners Christ died for us.....he was created to be a sacrifice for US so that we can be made right with God (2 Corinthians 5:21)! And NOTHING could seperate me from his love, nothing!

Another looking back many of us do in our walk is the basic wanting to keep one foot in the world while trying to continue walking forward with Jesus....that's not a balancing act any of us can continue for long. And, yes, that was me as well. Believe it or not even after the truth of his love and grace and forgiveness sank in there was a part of me that still wanted to keep a foot in the world. But the truth of the matter is that when we decide to follow Jesus we are saying that we understand the sacrifice he made for us and from that point on will strive to live like him. The old life we're use to is gone, no good for us. What good is it to want change in our life but continue to live the same lifestyle? That's kind of like taking a shower, but never washing your clothes. When we accept Christ we are a NEW creation!! Yes, i just said a NEW creation!! "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!" 2 corinthians 5:17. So why on earth if we are clean and made new would we want to put back on those old stinky clothes??? I'm so glad that through Jesus i have been made clean, but it is up to me to make sure my clothes stay clean by living according to his word. In the end I may have a few tears and scuffs maybe a couple of holes, but through the blood of Jesus i have been made clean. "because on this day atonement will be made for you, to cleanse you. Then, before the LORD, you will be clean from all your sins."Leviticus 16:30

So in our walk we need to look forward and not back. We need to strive for those things that Christ has called us too and forget the things we once sought after. Lot's wife was struck because in her deliverance she looked back longing for those things she was leaving behind. Let's not let our past keep us from what God has for our future.

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,

I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3:12-14

She's 12 today..........

It's so hard for me to believe that my baby girl is 12 yrs old today. I look at her and see this beautiful young lady standing were my toddler use to stand. I remember back to those little hands reaching up for me and saying......"up,up". Now this young lady looks at me and says...."mommy does my outfit look ok....does my hair look ok.....do these shoes match....." Wow, where has time gone? But another very special thing that I see in the eyes of this child is a pure unshakable love. When I think of the things my girls have been through over the years I am so blessed to have two beautiful girls who love God with all their heart and are completely dependant on him in everything they do. It really rings true the promise......"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28. The Lord stepped in and took control when there was no one else to turn to. He healed our broken hearts and taught us to depend on Him. I think back when i was a 12 yr old girl and I praise God that my baby girl is not doing the things I was doing at twelve! She is strong and focused, doing great in school, has taken up playing the Violin and is GREAT at it and has also taken up and interest in playing soccer. She's firm in her belief in Christ and isn't afraid to share that anywhere or with anyone.

THANK YOU GOD for guiding me in raising this precious baby girl!!

I praise you because she is fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139:14

Beautifully Broken

There's something about the passion for Christ that comes from a young girl who is broken and realizes that he is her only hope. That is a beautifully broken heart.

........Let us never forget where Christ brought us out of.

.......Let us always remember the beautifully broken body of Christ that was broken for us.



It seems like yesterday
That my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday
I didn’t know how hard I could cry

It feels like tomorrow
I may not get by
But I will try, I will try
Wipe the tears from my eyes

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it

Everyday is a new day
I’m reminded of my past
Every time there’s another storm
I know that it won’t last

Every moment I’m filled with hope
‘cause I get another chance
But I will try, I will try
Got nothing left to hide

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it

Without the highs and the lows
Where would we go
Where would we go

I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t mind if you know it
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it

I am beautifully broken
I am beautifully broken
I’m beautifully broken
And I don’t care if I show it


by - This Beautiful Republic

Share your faith.....sometimes use words.

Driving home Saturday after dropping the girls off with their daddy i had a lot of time to think (sitting in traffic of course!! grrr) . Anyway, i began to think of my life and how things have changed. It's crazy for me to think back where i was 5 years ago and where i would be now if it weren't for God's grace and love. I'm so thankful that He did not give me what i deserved and that he loves me just as I am! But I began to wonder do i really share that enough? Is my life enough evidence for those around me to see that God is a mighty God? Yeah, i go to church and i read my bible and all the other "christian" things, but is my LIFE proof? I don't want to be known as being "religious" I think that is a HUGE box that we as Christ followers unfortunately place God in sometimes. We tend to hide Him behind the fact that we go to church everytime the doors are open, that we read our bibles everyday, we squeeze in those few minutes with him.....we even pay our tithes......that should be enough for people to see that i love Jesus, right?? All those things are important and needed for sure! Don't get me wrong there, but if those are the only things that give people reason to "know" I'm a Christ follower than something is wrong. **You say you have faith, for you believe that there is one God. Good for you! Even the demons believe this, and they tremble in terror. James 2:19** Our faith should not be evident to others only by the fact that we say we go to church or read our bibles. Our faith should speak louder by our actions and the things we do. Now we aren't saved by our actions, but by grace through the blood of Jesus Christ, but when we are saved it should show by our actions.

**Rahab the prostitute is another example. She was shown to be right with God by her actions when she hid those messengers and sent them safely away by a different road. Just as the body is dead without breath, so also faith is dead without good works. James 2:25-26**

This scripture stuck out to me because here you see a prostitute, prostitute now, that was shown to be right with God by her actions of helping these messengers. Rahab's story (Joshua 2) is marked in this book due to her actions in showing grace to others. She could have turned these men in when the King of Jericho asked her where they were, but she didn't......she chose to help and hid them because she knew that the land had been given to them by the LORD. It says that she was "shown" to be right with God by her "actions"......if Rahab would have asked these messangers to spare her by "saying" she believed in their God and left them to fend for themselves do you think it would have gone the same way? Many people say they believe, but how many follow through with their actions. We all have choices in our lives and I believe God orchestrates opportunities for us to show our faith through our actions, but it is OUR choice to accept and take action.


The world isn't going to know Jesus by us just telling them about him. The world needs to see and feel the love of Jesus. And the only way they will is by our actions through the love Jesus has given us. Let us not "BOX" Jesus in a Religious box. Let us step out and "show" people who Jesus is!

**The one thing that an unbelieving world finds simply unbelievable,

is christians professing Christ with their mouth yet denying him by their lifestyle**

Get rid of the box.....

You turned water into wine

how extraordinary-Gave sight to the blind

and still I carry My own load when you told me

To take your yoke ‘cause yours is easy

And I don't wanna box you in

You've been doing big things since the world began

Sometimes I just don't wanna believeThat you're big enough

but you're big enough yeah!

I don't wanna box you in

You've been doing big things since the world began

Sometimes I just don't understand that you're big enough

But you're big enough Jesus

You turned darkness into light

keep my lamp burning

And you are my everything

There's no denying, your love is so amazing

And even though my problems seem typical

Nothing for you is ever too difficult

You never have reservations - love without limitations

And I don't wanna box you in

You've been doing big things since the world began

Sometimes I just don't wanna believe That you're big enough

but you're big enough yeah!

Oh, no matter how I try to get around it

I'm reminded Wherever I go

I'm totally surrounded - It's all about you

I can never doubt you Even if I wanted to…

And I don't wanna box you in

You've been doing big things since the world began

Sometimes I just don't wanna believe That you're big enough

but you're big enough yeah!!!

- Ayiesha Woods

I love this song because it helps me remember how awesome my God is!! It's so easy for me to box him in by trying to deal with situations in my life in my own strength. And being the loving gentleman he is he doesn't argue with me and he lets me do what I "think" I need to do and when out of my stubborness I stumble He is ALWAYS there to catch me. It's like when I was teaching my girls to walk......the mommy in me wanted to hold them and not let them fall, but the independance in them led them to let go of my hand to do it on their own. And really that's how they learn......if I always carried them then they would have never learned to balance or do things on their own. And even though I had to let go of their hand to allow them the room to learn I NEVER left their side and the second they reached up for my hand I was right there to take it! That's exactly how God is with us, he is always right there by our side just waiting for us to take his hand. But when we decide to deal with things on our own it's like we are putting him in a box. And when we don't believe that he can change a situation or that we've gotten ourselves in too deep for God to help then we box him in. He is BIGGER than anything we can ever be faced with! So lets not box in His power........lets get rid of those boxes and release the power of God in our lives!